Well Tuesday I had a new experience...totally foreign to me, however, exciting! It got the old adrenaline going, my heart pumping fast...and also a few more wrinkles I think as I cringed quite a few times at what came out of my mouth! :) :)
Tuesday I did a radio interview on my experience with grief.........OMG!!! What a way to make you feel alive that was!
The night before I had nightmares about it and woke up from a restless nights sleep, hoping I wouldn't sound like an idiot, forget questions or just blah blah blah on. I ended up doing all three. :)
Tuesday morning before the interview, I'll admit, I was a nervous wreck so I fuelled up on a vanilla latte from Starbucks with a tripple espresso shot and a Rockstar energy drink, took a shower then blasted the cold water at the end in hope of waking myself up enough not to sound like a crazy grieving person.
When my cell phone rang right on one p.m the adrenaline kicked in...I almost needed a paper bag to breathe into as I heard the DJ tell me..."10 seconds Diana then we're on. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, 5, 4, 3, 2, 1.....it was showtime! I held my breath and the phone with sweaty palms and for the next sixty minutes, answered Rob McConnell's questions about grief, survival and life....as I paced my kitchen floor!
If you are interested, here is the link......you can be the judge, I repeated myself, lost myself, however answered some questions that I hope will help anyone travelling this lonely, sad, life changing and often empowering journey of grief.
I hope if you decide to listen it will help at least one of you....even if its only one, then the stress I self imposed on myself will have been worth it. :) And if I'm ever given this wonderful opportunity again I know I'll be better, hey, it's all experience right???? :)
ps; today I enjoyed just water...I think my caffeine intake for the whole year was used up on Tuesday :)
wishing you sunshine today............Diana x
pss; my name should be on the left hand side if you arrow down...if you choose to take this mission, this message will self destruct in 5, 4, 3, 2, 1!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!