Saturday, February 27, 2010

No time like the present!

Well, I've finally done it...I've been procrastinating about it for so long now, worried about a theme, and who, if anyone would be interested in what I write...so here goes!


A bit about why I write and who I am and why getting down my thoughts will be so important....to me anyway! :) While umming and arring over doing this blog, a funny thing happened, I received an email from a stranger that had read some writing I have published on the Internet, encouraging me to keep writing...so here I am.....thanks to Glenna...whoever you are!


I'm a mom of two beautiful little girls although only one is here with us. Our oldest daughter Savannah died at the age of four and a half, six years ago. It still feels like yesterday.


The death of a child certainly changes your soul, your world and whats important in life. I feel I've had two live's...the one before September 2000 and the one after. In the one before I was living a fairytale existence, married to the man of my dreams and doting over an adorable curly haired little baby girl. Innocent and carefree of any sort of loss or challenges in my life.


Then my life became an out of control roller coaster, sending me from the highest of highs to the lowest of lows...and there was NO getting off!


Within 3 years I lost three of the most important people in my life...my sister, then my mother and finally, incomprehensibly, my daughter Savannah.....all to different deaths. Looking back, I don't know how I survived. I still have people today ask me how I get out of bed everyday......this has inspired me to write my take on life.


Sometimes this space may be filled with inspiration, sometimes just crazy tit bits, sometimes an insight into how an everyday mom survives some tough days and sometimes my sunshine....my outlook on things stirred with a bit of fun....but most of all I want it to inspire others to realize that you can face any challenge and survive...even become a better person sometimes because of hardship. I want to remind people to look at the joy the little things in life can bring you.


I want to write about my everyday comings and goings which I find to be miracles and how my family and friends have become one of my survival tools and give me a reason to smile again.


Then there is Dempsey...our other daughter who is 7, who is healthy, who wakes every morning with a happiness that is contagious, who skips through the gate at school everyday, leaving me smiling...and shaking my head as I drive away. Who has the biggest cutest dimples that are a gift from God, who is ALIVE, who is my world, my reason for getting out of bed everyday....she is my HOPE, my joy, my Sunshine in a Blue Cup!


I hope in reading what I write you can find YOUR sunshine, or some sunshine, or a smile, no matter how blue things get :)


Welcome friend! x









7 comments:

  1. Oh Diana,

    You wrote a powerful story of your sad and painful loss of your precious little girl, mother and sister.

    It has touched my heart today.

    I send you a hug from Philadelphia, a mother's embrace for I know the loss, too.

    Mary Jane

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  2. Dear Mary Jane,

    Thank you so much for your heartfelt comment. I know you, as a mom who has also lost a daughter, you truly understand.

    Thank you too for your hug, I miss my mom's hugs and wish somedays for just one more phone call.

    I will look forward to checking out your blog, you are doing a wonderful job of helping others like me!

    Hope your day is filled with sunshine :)
    love
    Diana

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  4. Diana,

    I happen to come accross your site while going through my site statistics. I like to see where people are coming from when they find Mari's site.

    From one mom to another who has lost an angel now in heaven, I know how you are feeling and what you've been through.

    No, I don't know what it is like to lose a child to a prolonged illness as my daughter contracted E-coli and took her life just two weeks two days later. However, to lose a child as young as ours, yours just 6 and mine only 8 1/2 years old, you know how unbearable it can all seem at the time and how we have somehow been able to continue living our lives.

    Please find me on Facebook: http://www.facebook.com/kristenatunstall. I hope we can get to know each other better.

    My daughter's name is Mariana (pronounced Mar-e-awe-na) and her site is located at http://www.mommysangelinheaven.com

    By the way, I have also added your site to my Blogroll page. I have put it under the category of "Grief/Mourning." However, if you feel a better category would be better, please just let me know.

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  5. Thank you for your lovely thoughts on my angel. I think losing a child any way is the most painful thing I will ever have to do in my life....I am so sorry about Mariana. Life changes after loss doesn't it!

    Thanks for adding me to your site, I really appreciate it if maybe I can help another going through any hardship.

    I read your blog each time you post...it's comforting sometimes to know someone else feels the same pain I do but is learning to live after loss.
    Sending love
    Diana x

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