Thursday, June 7, 2012

The power of H O P E x



These past few days, I’ve been reminded again that life can change on a dime…in a milli second…on a day when you had plans to cook dinner for your family or pick up your kids from school! 

It's reminded me to question what it is that I want out of life?

A very special friend of mine, from our close inner circle has had her life turned upside down with a life altering diagnosis.

A trip to the doctor discovered a brain tumor and life as her and her family know it has now been ripped out from under them.

And when something like this happen, your world stops.

You feel panicked about what might happen, the not knowing is terrifying.

You question ‘why’ and can only see the unfairness of it….and it is unfair!   My friend is only 35 and has a loving husband and 2 beautiful little girls who need their mum.   And again, I can’t get my head around ‘why’ such bad things happen to good people…but going down that path is mindless and sucks the energy and focus from us.   It steals it from centering on the positives and what we are in control of, and shifts it to the negatives that paralyze you with fear.

Hearing about my friend’s diagnosis instantly took me back to when I got a call to say my sister had been killed, and the day we were told our daughter Savannah would die.  That day, I was busy with the mundane stuff that life brings like cleaning and making beds and washing clothes when in one phone call, my, or our, life changed. It’s never been the same since.

I didn’t want to call my friend as I know from experience it takes time to comprehend and process a diagnosis like she has just been given.   So I sent her an email instead, for I’ve been her a few times with life altering news and know the uncertainty and shock is raw and real and all consuming.

My friend called me instead and we had a heart to heart about what you can do when you are struck down and life as you knew it is suddenly out of control like a train that’s been derailed….

We talked of how it’s overwhelming to look too far ahead, that its scary not knowing what’s next…

I told her to take each day and get through it the best way she can with the information she’s been given.   And I shared with her that sometimes on days when Savannah would scream in pain for hours, and I couldn’t help her, I’d focus on the next hour and the one after that, and the one after that…in hope that things might be better…sometimes I coped by crying and sleeping.

You do what works for you and what gets you through. There are no rules….no rhyme or reason.





And it’s weird, but I was asked a few weeks ago by a journalist what it was and still is that I cling to, that keeps me going….I considered her question carefully, and the one thing that I came up with was ‘hope.’

Back then it was hope for a good day for Savannah, hope my tears would stop, sometimes just for an hour, hope that I would survive the challenges and the grief that had overtaken my world.



I told my friend about the power of hope…because when everything you know gets torn apart, and you feel you’re no longer in control…hope is empowering, over time, it gives you the power to believe that maybe things won’t be as bad as you first thought.   That you can learn a ‘new normal’ and that in time, your life does get back to being stable again…even if it is different for a while.

My friend like us doesn’t have a choice in what’s happened to her, but I told her she does have control over her journey in the way she faces it, with positive thought and that powerful little four letter word......H O P E.

And she told me she’s up for the challenge, she’s brave, a fighter and is prepared to do whatever it takes to get her life back.   And I was reminded again about the power of the human spirit to survive and dig deep and find what it is you need…like the support of family and friends and educating yourself and finding things that feed your strength…..

So my heart has been heavy this week with this news, I’m not sleeping and feel helpless that I can’t be with her family to rally around them.   However, her news has also prompted me again not to put things off!   So I’ve opened my suitcase and started packing to go home to Australia early and see my dad and my family….to enjoy time with Dempsey, for I know my friend would give anything to be baking her cakes or helping with homework in the company of her girls.



None of us know what’s next?

From the time we’re born we are merely ‘surviving life’….trying not to get into an accident, or stay free from disease…to keep our kids safe…life is one big game of survival but it’s what we do with that game…how we choose to live and enjoy our precious days.   To know what it is we want out of this one precious life we are gifted with.

If any of my readers are the praying kind, please say a prayer for my friend and her beautiful family, that they stay strong and weather this storm.   Her surgery is next Monday and I hope everything goes according to plan.   She is in the best hands, her doctors are heroes…they deal with these cases every single day and give our loved ones their life back.

Last night, as I tucked Dempsey into bed, I hugged her a bit harder and sat with her a bit longer…for my friend…and for her girls who I know must be missing having their mama do the same at the moment….



x

12 comments:

  1. Oh what a beautiful post despite all the sadness that's happening! So true that we have a choice as to which journey we'll be taking amidst good/bad news...
    Hugs

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  2. So sorry to hear about your friend; I will definitely send some prayers up for her. I just heard disturbing news this week about a little girl I only know through this blog world of ours. Her name is Lucy and I have seen pictures and read about her battle with cancer for about 18 months. She is only 5 years old and after all of her treatment has finally been finished and her sweet mother (who also has a child that isn't even 2 yet and another that just finished second grade) thought this summer would bring some rest, relaxation and a reprieve from all her family has been through, Lucy's cancer has returned and there is nothing more they can do. My heart is broken for this family and it has served as such a reminder to me that none of us are promised tomorrow. We need to savor each moment of every day.

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  3. Holding all of you in gentle thought and prayer, Diana dear ~ and little Lucy, too . . . ♥

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  4. Diana, I will send up some prayers for you and your dear friend! I know God hears them. Let's pray he sends a miracle!

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  5. How devastating! I will send some prayers up for this precious mama, and you as well. It seems there is never a shortage of bad news. sigh

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  6. Dear Spirited Mama,

    Thank you for stopping by...so true, our attitude drives destiny and my friend has a wonderfully positive one which is great.

    love
    Diana x

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  7. Dear Barbara,

    THANK YOU for your prayers for my friend...the power of positve thought and prayers does work I feel.

    I'm so sorry to hear about Lucy's diagnosis, hearing things like that are heartbreaking and makes me want to hug Dempsey and not take a day for granted. I'll keep Lucy and her family in my thoughts.
    love
    Diana x

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  8. Lovely Marty,

    As always, you are an earth Angel...thank you for thinking of my friend and for your support always.

    love
    Diana x

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  9. Dear Cindy,

    THANK YOU for your prayers...it means a lot to think people that I don't know are thinking of my friend. Hopefully she will be fine.

    Thanks for stopping by,
    love
    Diana x

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  10. Lovely Candice,

    My friend is a precious Mama so thanks for thinking of her...I can only imagine how scary things must be at the moment for her, but she's an amazing woman and has a positive attitude so I'm hoping for the best for her.

    I also hope this new week will bring good news and reminders to appreciate every day.

    Give your little ones a kiss from me.
    love
    Diana x

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